This is especially for my reader Jessica T. As I said in “comments and feedback”, I do not have any stuff about JJ saved on my hard disks. So this will be a fresh post. It’s about why I love JJ and it may have some content that has been posted before. As an aside, I would like to ask Jess “This is the second comment in the past one year where you have asked for more posts on my relationship. Does it make you wonder?” If that’s so, maybe this post will make it clear that there is a difference between beating your head on the wall and digging at a mountain”. Besides, I have no closure. I don’t know. I really do not. However, today I will also write about how it’s hard on a relationship to hang on because of a connection alone. I can’t always ‘read between the lines’(得慢慢领会 – dei manman linghui; 体会言外之意 – tihui yanwaizhiyi; 从字里行间读出言外之意 – cong zikihangjian du chu yanwaizhiyi) and no matter how strong a connection you feel with someone you still need to talk and express your needs. You may not always read between the lines correctly and a shutdown of communication makes it hard for the relationship to survive. This is where faith comes in. And with faith comes another question. How long should one have faith? And before you even start reading, I would like to warn you that this post may not make sense at times. It’s going to be random because I will type as I think of stuff. I won’t be trying to formulate it into a concise clear post. Its just random rambling. Enough with the explanations. So WHY DO I LOVE HER? I don’t know. And I know. And I can express it. And I have no words to explain it. It’s magic, it’s mesmerizing. Isn’t that how love should be? What makes my relationship with JJ any different from your relationship with your man/woman? Aren’t all relations more or less the same, Love, understanding, caring, passion, support, sex, companionship, dreams, etc. etc. So why is our relationship different from yours? Because it’s me. And it’s her. Your relationship will definitely not excite me. You love your man/woman for him/her (Assuming you are in love and not together for other reasons). It’s different only in this way. You love who you love for who she is and who she is to you. I may meet your woman someday and not even notice her. Does that make your woman any less special to you? Thus I love JJ for who she is… and definitely for who she is to me.
